Finally..

I stepped out of the house to breathe in some fresh air.

It felt different between in and out of home.

These days, i would choose to stay home when i am unhappy or troubled. I don't know how to express my feelings and thoughts, and i'm really afraid to speak my mind.

I used to be chirpy and outgoing. Its not the same now. It's becoming pretentious. I have loads of thoughts running through my mind, sometimes i can't breathe.

My perfect piece of picture that i kept all these while is never the same one. There are stains and marks on it which i don't want other people to see it. I want everyone to have the indent impression of this piece of beautiful picture, and remember the goodness of it. Hence, i hid it somewhere whereby no one can see, no one can find.

Today, i received an sms that reads: 'Remember if you need a friend, anytime anywhere i can be there for you. I am just a ring away.'
This sms meant a lot to me.

I am contented. I am blessed with many genuine and good friends who really love me for who and what i am. They never attempt to change me. They are the ones who stood by me, listen to me, hold my heart, and guide me along the good and bad times.

Thank you guys. You know who you are. I love all of you. Thank you.

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寂寞

The impression.

My trip to Taipei & Hongkong was a fruitful one.

I stayed in a hotel that i thought it felt like a second home. The hotel attendants are really warm and friendly souls. The drivers are really chatty.

Generally, the Taiwanese are very nice people. They are well-mannered and helpful.

The weather was chilly. I have always detest cold weather and i sweared that i won't travel to countries during winter. Although it wasn't winter and it ain't snowing there, but the temperature was unbearable. I wanted to be home badly, but i'm missing Taipei now.
I don't know.. maybe it's the people, the environment, or even the weather.

The one thing that impressed me was..

the citizens actually queued to dump their garbage. This will never happen in Singapore.

Well, the last night in Taipei. My boyfriend and I did a good deed. While we were walking to the MRT, we saw this troubled lady. She was seeking help from a security officer to view the CCTV to see if her daughter was caught on the video camera. After paused for a few minutes, we decided to proceed on. She shouted out to us to help to keep a lookout for her daughter. We acknowledged and continued walking. I thought we should walked a faster pace in case we missed the little girl. From a far distance, i saw this little girl crossing the road. Although she was walking near to this couple pushing a baby pram, it seemed like she ain't related to them. I urged my boyfriend to race across the road as the green man was already blinking.
I was right. She was the little girl that the lady was anxiously looking out for.
I was absolutely elated that we found her. She almost crossed another road without looking out for cars. Thank god. We walked her back to her mom, and saw the two hugged each other in tears. What a touching scene. Parents should really watch out for their kids at all times.

Mee Sua. Hotspring. Shopping. XiMenTing. Beitou. Shih Lin Night Market. Raohe Night Market. Tong Hua Street & Night Market. XXL Chicken. Sausages... i missed.



What about Hongkong. I think it was too short time to know the people better.

I merely stayed in Hongkong for 2 nights. I was at Disneyland for almost one full day. And of course, i visited other places such as Mongkok, Central, Causeway Bay, Wan Chai.

In Singapore, besides night life the shopping malls would be closed by 10pm. Whereas in Hongkong, shopping malls are still quite busy when it was closed to midnight.
The streets are packed with people and it felt different.

I guess i have grabbed every opportunity to experience life in foreign countries.
My boyfriend and I took MRT and walked a lot from places to places.

I fell in love walking in the streets. Taiwan, i will be back next year.

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I cannot describe the kind of pain and damage caused by the humiliation that came from a loved one.

From a lack of self confidence and self esteem, i'm becoming invisible.

I don't know who can help, but i know i have to save myself from dwelling deeper into misery.

Can't remember since when i started to give up on myself.

I kept fighting. I kept nursing this broken thing. But each time the soft spot in me gives way, i began to doubt my ability.

What am i good for? I really don't know.

It really hurts.

God. Do you still love me? Will you help to overcome this difficulty.

I don't want to give up.